Artist of my soul

Artist of my soul
You have taken my life
Once a portrait of chaos
Darkened by sin
You have taken the ugliness
And painted over it
An array of beauty
A collage of colour
The canvas now stands tall
Painted by the Master
No longer portraying the blue, the black
But shining your colours of red, white
Colours of redemption and purity
Holy, now I stand
A renewed creation
Blessed that the brush strokes of the Creator
Saw fit to touch my life

Remembering the View

[P.T. (1967 - 2005) - Te quiero]

It's the end of the day
I'm on the dock
Taking in the view
Red skies, mountain tops and city lights
Thinking about you

Holding back what's left
Of a reservoir of tears
Remembering the days and weeks
And wishing it was years

Feeling cheated, wishing
I had known you longer
Wondering if we had a chance
Would our friendship have grown stronger

No one here will really know
The friend you were to me
The moments that we shared
Are now a memory

I have faith and know God did things
The way that He knew best
And trusting in Him, I know
My saddened heart will find its rest

It's the end of the day
I'm on the dock
Thinking about you
Wondering if you're somewhere
Remembering the view

Moonlight

Moonlight
Illumine my darkess
With your reflection
Brighten my path
No light of your own
You still shine
Your brilliance can't compare
With that of the sun
But you do what you can
So I don't stumble
The black nights scare me
But your companionship is encouraging
Weak yourself you stretch out
What little rays of hope you bear
Who will know that it wasn't you

Forever

Forever seems like such a long, long time
To wait for you to come, to wait till you're mine

Loneliness shelters me while in the shadows you stay
Far from me, but close enough to watch and pray

Still I wait for you as each moment passes by
Discouraged, depressed but for you I'll try

I see you in my mind, in my prayers
And wonder when you'll be in my arms, in my cares

Am I waiting for you or are you waiting for me
Are we waiting both until someone's healed

Forever seems like such a long,long time
And you belong to God, right now, you're not mine

The Harvest of 2005

Though I can't condone the things you did
I love you, babe, I always will

It wasn't quite twenty years ago
When on your knees you did propose

You promised, babe, til death you vowed
That nothing would end the love we found

In sickness and health, through good and bad
Nothing altered the love we had

We raised a family a farm and found joy
For eighteen years with two girls and a boy

Now the babies are teens and things have changed
You ran off with a woman half your age

With no explanation, no kiss goodbye
I'm left with the kids and we're wondering why

"Mommy, doesn't Daddy love me no more?"
"What did I do wrong?" and "Who's that girl?"

"'Til death do us part" you promised me
But it wasn't death, just forty-three

I have no answers, I can't understand
Why you'd choose the desert over the promised land

Now I have no choice but to pack up the tears
Face the future and all my fears

You're not coming back. I know that now
But the kids and I will make it somehow

Can I ask of you one thing before we say our goodbyes
Look at the tears in your children's eyes

And know this, they will reap the seeds you have planted
I guess that's something you took for granted

I'll never understand the things you did
But I love you, babe, I always will.

Wait for the healing

(P.T. - Jer. 29:11)

Wait for the healing
Hope and don't give up
There's not an ailment
Not an illness
That God's hand cannot touch

The world around you
Will give up and give in
Not believing in you
Not believing you will win

How dare I encourage you
What gives me the right to say
That God is all powerful
When healing's not come my way

Maybe God's not healed me
But He's taught me how to live
And to wait for the healing
Something He promised He would give.